The Bud That Bloomed In Heaven

Isn't it amazing how one simple thing can evoke so much emotion?

We had several vases of fresh peonies in our kitchen for days, those turned into not fresh flowers. But something in me just wasn't ready to throw them away. A few mornings ago I walked by one vase and noticed this on little perfectly beautiful bud. It died before it could bloom. "T H E  B U D  T H A T  B L O O M E D  I N  H E A V E N". That struck all my emotions. I then started looking at all the flowers and how they fell in the vases. Some cozied up next to others. Some all alone. All giving off their own personality. 

I decided one by one I would take them out and photograph them. As I was photographing them in my kitchen with the patio door open listening to life... birds chirping, the dog chasing chipmunks and my husband swinging on the patio swing. I was noticing my life playing out. 

This isn't going to be everyone's cup of tea... but this is for all those mommas out there that have lost a child. 

As I pulled each image up to artwork, I wept. I got chills and couldn't stop the tears from flowing. 

It's been 14 years since I lost my first baby but I will never forget. I will never forget all the "what if's". I will never forget the words coming out of my doctors mouth "there's no heart beat". I will never forget the depression. I will never forget the emptiness. I will never forget all the people that were there for me. I will never forget. 

I know the feelings you have. 

My heart mourns for you. 

That tiny little bud put a little fire in me to just create. It just spun into this little story. All these flowers represent people in my life and their souls. 

I pray for you that you may sleep peacefully at night knowing that your L I T T L E  B U D  H A S  B L O O M E D  I N  H E A V E N